[translation] 樹海(jukai) - nüe

jukai – jungle 

fukai mori ni mayoi gomi deguchi mo miataranakute

lost into a deep forest, I can't found the way out

komore hi ga sukima kara yasashiku te manaiteita

the sunlight through a gap, gently invites me.

kakomareta kigi no you boku no karada mo ne wo hari

As all of these trees that surround me, my body has roots too

odayakana kono mori no ichibu ni naretara ii na

I would like to be part of this calm forest

hito wa umareru toki mo shinu toki mo hitori darou nee

I think people are alone when birth and death

fukaku oku e susundeku soro soro koko de nemurou

going deeper, I'm about to sleep

tabako ni hi wo tsuketanara “” ni fukikaketa

I would blow my "hesitation" if I lit a cigarette¹

soumatou no you ni omoide ga kakemeguru

my memories run over a revolving lantern²

waratteita katta hontou wa ikiteitai yo

I wanted to laugh, truly, I wanted to stay alive!

demo kizuitanda jibun ga iranai to

but I feel like I don't need it

kanashimi hitotsu mo mukiaenai no wa

I wouldn't bear even one more sadness

yowakute zurukute mijimena jibun jishin no sei

my weakness, pettiness, and misery are my own fault

“betsu ni konna jinsei nozonde tawake janai.”

"I did not expect nothing particular from this life."

yume datte atta yaritai koto mo atta

I had a dream, I had something that I wanted to do

demo negattatte mokuwarenai to shitta

but I knew that this hope would not to be filled

sore demo dareka wo aishite iraretara

but even so, if I could love someone

kiraina jibun wo yurushite ikirareta kana

maybe I can forgive myself and keep living

“kitto...”

"Surely... "

Translator notes:

Kids, don't kill yourself.

I got this lyrics on BrenGun Monochrome-heaven’s post. There’s already a translation but I wanted to do my own.

¹ on the BrenGun’s post, this part has empty quotes (as I did on the romaji), by hearing the song I'm 82% sure that he sings 躊躇い(tamerai) that means "hesitation".

² 走馬灯(soumatou) are those lampshades, usually for children, that have images and revolve (making drawings in the shadows).

It is a word attributed to the "light" that we see at the time of death, as it is a lamp that shows images in the shadows, it is like the "movie" that they say we see at the time we die.

Source: https://meaning.jp/posts/675